I'm tryna feel, I'm tryna heal

This child inside that's scared of everything

When I look in the mirror, I see a boy

Who's struggling to pick up the pieces

When there's a silence in place of a loving voice

And peace and quiet is never thought of as a choice

Seeing my friends live a life I wanted bad

All while living a life I'm forced to have

Mourning a father who tried his best to be around

Why is it hard for me to cry in my own house

This is the only thing keeping me together

A bunch of half nothings that don't really know any better

I want to run... run away

Like a boy who never got the chance to

I'm trying to be... what I can't be

Filling shoes that are just too big for me

With aspirations and dreams you never got to live

Beaten to pieces with so much left to give

I promise that I've been trying to do my part

but I lack strength in this heart

And where do I start

When i'm just so far

From this image you have in your head

Where I feel...

Powerful and competent, to move mountains and continents

Where I look fear in the eye, and I slay it with confidence

Where I rise up with your mantle, and I carry it, and I honor it

I'm just so far from where you stand, so face me and take all this...

Away

Now my head hangs in shame

So will you help me?... So will you help me?

Wash away this feeling

Like an ocean's morning wave

When I'm half nothing

When I'm half nothing

When this heart is cold and grey

And it's strength can't be sustained

Will you help me wash away

Like a wave crashing on the shoreline